Feathers

Feathers
by Carmen A. Cisnădean

Of!

My beloved gray sky
How you torment me!

Yet how I love your touch
Even in the dark!
Of!

You wish to come and shun the sunshine on me
But all you have to give me is gray melody
And never warmth that will stay with me
For you cannot belong to only me.

Don't tell me that you'd love me,
For you are well aware of your own limitations,
Suffocate the spirit of the dove in me
Leaving me all weary and marked,
Feathers falling off
No strength to fly
More fragile than fragile
Of!

You would suck the stellar life from me!

Of!

I would so unconditionally love you,
Hunted by the headless key
Of the heart who is too pure to live
Among the dust and rot
Of selfish consequences
Of!

You, with your eyes so blue
Love me, but do not suffocate me!
Love me enough
To see me happy and alive,
But do not take my wings away
Those that belong to me, and only me. 

Pene

(A brief Romanian translation)

Of!
Scumpul meu cer gri
Cum tu ma tulburi!

Dar eu cat iubesc atingerea ta
Chiar si-ntuneric!
Of!

Cu razele soarelui tu iti doresti sa ma-nvelesti
Dar tot ce ai sa-mi dai e melodie gri
Si niciodata caldura care sa imi stea alaturi
Caci tu nu poti numai mie sa imi apartii.

Tu sa nu-mi spui caci ma iubesti,
Caci tu esti bine constient de limitele tale,
Sufocandu-mi spiritul de porumbel alb in mine
Lasandu-ma de plin marcata si-obosita,
Penele cad jos
Fara putere de-a zbura
Mai fragile decat fragil
Of!

Ai smulge viata stelara din mine!

Of!
Te-as iubi neconditionat,
Urmarita de spiritul cheii fara cap
A acei inime care e prea pura a trai
Intre praf si degradare
A consecintelor egoiste

Of!

Tu, cu ochii tai atat de-albastrii
Iubeste-ma, dar nu ma sufoca!
Iubeste-ma destul
Sa ma vezi fericita si inca vie
Dar nu-mi lua aripile mele
Cele ce-mi apartin mie, si numai mie.

                                                                   

(written on March 21, 2011)